I have an internal aspect about me that I feel I need to explain myself to others. In my head they aren’t excuses because no one is asking for them I’m just letting the other person know what happened or why I did something(or didn’t).
It didn’t occur to me until Christmas break when I was kind half praying. Ya know praying and scrolling or praying and thinking about your own outcome (just be real). It hit me “you owe her nothing. You owe me everything”. I was so worried about a situation in my personal life. I was debating if I should message this person trying to explain why I hadn’t done something. I was so worried! My mind was wondering so far that I was worrying my kids were going to hate me when they grew up and how terrible of a mom I am. How this person was going to be laughing at me and how she must be right I’m just awful and my husband should divorce me. Literally my mind was down the rabbit trail. I was praying “please lord. This person makes me so uncomfortable please God guide me where you want me. Guide me so I don’t have to feel bad. Show me or better yet show her I didn’t mean to.
“You owe her nothing. You owe me everything”. I had spent most of my time worrying over this person that I owe nothing to. I hadn’t thanked God for what he gave me. I didn’t give him the praise he deserves. I was just wining to him. I owe this person nothing. No matter how bad she will make me feel or how nasty she talks to me and about me. I owe her nothing. As long as I am doing exactly what God wants from me then I am okay. Am I going to fail yes but I will ask forgiveness. I need to go on his path and focus on where he put me. This person is going to talk regardless of which path I choose. So why not let them talk knowing I’m right where God put me.
Stay prayed up is my 2023 saying. I encourage you all to do it too. I hope this inspires you to be whoever Jesus made you to be and be confident because God doesn’t make mistakes. 💕
Handling The Harpers 